Beth Chapmantruly wasDuane “Dog the Bounty Hunter”‘smost wanted.
In Wednesday night’s finale of WGN’sDog’s Most Wanted, Duane, 66, becomes overcome with grief hours after Beth’s death — and he begins to contemplate suicide.
“I’ve only been alone as I showered and I had to run out without a towel, because I can’t be alone right now,” Duane told the camera during the final episode. “That’s when I start thinking about things. And I lay down to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something, and it was the freaking dog. I don’t realize yet psychologically that she’s gone gone and I’ll never, ever see her. I don’t realize that.”
“I just hope that I don’t live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, she’s through the gate,” he added. “She paved a way for me. I want to take a g– d— pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now and passed away suicidal and I got to heaven and was like, ‘Hi honey,’ and would she go, ‘You d— a–, why would you do that?’ Or would she go, ‘Wow, you’re here.’ I’ll be like ‘Of course I’m here. You left me. I’m here.’ So, am I obligated to do that?”
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Beth, who wasdiagnosed with stage II throat cancerin September 2017, died on June 26 at the age of 51.
Though weary of doctors and hospitals, Dog eventually agreed to seek treatment.
“I hesitated for a minute thinking, I don’t want to have to go through this again,” Dog told PEOPLE. “I don’t want to die right now. I’m not afraid to die anymore, but I really didn’t care for awhile if something would happen. I do care now.”
In theDog’s Most Wantedfinale, viewers saw the the raw moments the Chapman family shared in the days before and the hours after Beth’s death.
In an emotional home footage clip, Duane’s daughters — Lyssa, Bonnie and Cecily — are at a loss for words hours after her death.
“It feels like it’s not real,” says Lyssa, who’s one of Duane’s children with his third wife, Lyssa Brittain.
“We’ve prepared for this for a while,” Duane, 66, tells her. “I don’t care how much you prepare, it’s tough.”
Talking in front of the camera this time, Duane says, “It’s about 6 a.m. in Hawaii, Honolulu. At 5:30 something, Beth usually gets up every day to hit Koko Head mountain here with the family, some of her girls and her dog, and today at that time Beth’s hike was the stairway to heaven.”
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The family honored Beth at agathering with friends and fans at Fort DeRussy Beach in Waikiki, Hawaii, as well as at anemotional memorial serviceat the Heritage Christian Center in Aurora, Colorado.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact theNational Suicide Prevention Lifelineat 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
source: people.com
